This past weekend I went to see Michael Clayton with my wonderful roomy. Let’s just say I highly recommend the movie. The movie has several subplot lines but the prevalent story is exposing the evil side of corporate America.
I am not sure why, but this past weekend I have encountered or mini-discovered many people asking “How did I get here???” When we are young we have the world at our fingertips. We are so hopeful and benign. At what point in our lives do we change and become lawless criminals who will do anything for profit shares or the success of the corporation? Hmmm…at what point do we render ourselves to the big monster and sell ourselves? For how much a 100k, maybe 500k, maybe a million a year? Are you that cheap???
I’m guilty. Very guilty. I succumbed. Because I thought it was the right thing to do. I thought that going up the corporate ladder was the only way to be successful. Having the corporate office, wearing the nice Valentino suit, having people look at me with respect and in awe. Well, maybe it’s not all that is cracked up to be. My conscience now tells me otherwise. There are other things in this world that are more important that a corner office. At least in my mind.
So, if you worked 70 hours last week, what are you getting out of it? Because remember time will never be something you get back. Are you really happy with yourself as an individual?
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October 26, 2009 at 12:49 am
i love this movie.
so you made a comment about going offline. i don’t wanna be presumptious, and i probably should not be bc i always turn out to be wrong!
my guess is that you probably told some of your close friends about this, its definitely a little bit weird, and you know someone you know knows me. (as it is a little weird too for me, i too have talked to a friend or two) so back to my theory – your friends may know you are blogging and have read some of the stuff. so i picked this random spot bc they probably wouldn’t know which entry you were typing under other than that spot.
if i am wrong, feel free to correct my theory.
i don’t mind to even give you my email address, i just need to talk to this so and so person because i really respect him and let him know what i have done so he doesn’t mistrust me in the future, I value his trust a lot. i really struggle with this issue though so i just want to validate you.
i hope you are well.
safe travels tomorrow.
October 26, 2009 at 4:59 am
Hello…
I’m feeling a lot better. It took good friends, and a wonderful breakfast but I got back.
In regards to going offline, its not so much that I mentioned this to a few friends but the fact that it is an open website that random people could read. I’m not too comfortable with that part. I think it would be best if we just emailed. But I understand about your friend.
You did not write too much yesterday. Don’t worry. I really enjoyed reading you. I have a lot of catching up to do in responding to you.
I went to see New York, I love You!. I loved it. It got me thinking about meetings again and about the randomness of it all. Also about thoughts. And how we all think so differently from each other. That completely thrills me. And about interpretation of situations. There was a story towards the end of this two old people celebrating their 63rd wedding anniversary. It was so precious how they expressed their love towards each other after all of those years. I would love that to be my future.
Yes…tomorrow I fly back. Early. And I still haven’t packed and its 1am. I have to wake up at 5. This weekend has been exhausting but well worth it. I cherish my time with them. Its precious. I would do anything for them.
What do I love about Sundays? A great breakfast and spending time with family. Soccer matches, some football and spending more time with family. I love Sundays…
Okay…I have to go now…pack, some sleep and fly back…
October 26, 2009 at 10:46 am
he’s not only my friend he’s your friend too. and don’t forget, i myself am a random person to you at this moment…. 🙂
you don’t have to catch up. don’t worry. i type too much so i don’t expect you to answer all the stuff.
enjoy your flight today. i didn’t write so much because i had busy busy day. occasionally i have to work a bit on the weekends, and weekend work is a bit harder than weekday work because my staff is not there to help make life easier so i have to do all the basic stuff, some of which you forget how to do.
so still remaining cryptic, 😦 , i get to observe a lot about relationships between people at work. yesterday i saw love at its best and worst between two people and that is probably why it was a bad day = the worst part. but you know one thing is when relationships are tested, and when you see love between a woman and a man, true love, it brings tears to your eyes. and i witnessed that yesterday. a woman who gave all to her husband. agh it was heart crushing.
you don’t call it soccer, we call it soccer. you probably call it futbol. right? i played soccer when i was a tike ane was actually really good at it. but i haven’t played in years. years.
what do you like for breakfast?
what is your favorite thing about where you live?
Friends are very important. You know funny thing – i have moved two times basically in my life. well i lost track of friends over the years. i am just tooo busy with work and have too many responsibilities to keep in touch to some degree. but with facebook i have reconnected with so many people from my childhood. the most interesting thing? those childhood friends are still the best friends. they are the ones i trust the most. the ones who know me the best. its very weird in a sense, that you feel so much more secure with these people that you haven’t talked to in 20 years, vs people that you see every day. Weirdness. I reconnected with a friend I had in 4th and 5th grade before they moved away, and it was almost like old times.
my best friend is flying in this coming weekend and we are going to go nuts i hope. probably more tame than college days but we’ll see. i’m excited. i have another friend from home who might be getting a job close by, which would be good too. i love that possibility.
i hope you slept well albeit limited. i hope you have a safe trip.
October 26, 2009 at 4:23 pm
I’m back. And even before I landed the work emails were flowing in. I am swamped today. And I have a feeling for the rest of the week. Urggg…
Anywho…that is true, he is my friend too, whomever this person is. Are you going to tell this friend of ours about this in the near future?
What you witnessed sounds intense. That is the gamble with love you might win or lose and all is fair in that game. Isn’t that terrifying?
I do call it futbol. I love it. Can’t wait for World Cup. I love it. I wanted to go to South Africa, but I don’t think I will be able to at all. Sometimes life does get in the way. But next one for sure I will go. It’s going to be in Brazil and that will be insanity at its best.
I love French Toast for breakfast. That is my favorite…after than maybe pancakes.
Favorite thing about where I live…hmmm…that is a tough one. Def, not the winter. Ahhh…not sure about that one. I have to get back to you on this one.
Friends are important. I refer to them as your chosen family. I treasure my friendships a lot and they know it. And through all of those efforts I have a pretty amazing group of friends. My only wish now is to be closer to them and my family.
Glad you are going to have a great Halloween weekend with your best friend. I’m sure you will go nuts…
Slept 3 1/2 hours and like 2 more hours on the plane. Not bad. Coffee is on its way. Did I mention I hate morning flights? hahahaha…But it is a beautiful day here in New England. It’s sunny and not a cloud in the sky and not too cold. It’s going to be a good day.
What do you like the most about where you live? What do you think about law or lawyers?
October 26, 2009 at 6:56 pm
hmmmmmm. thats nice. its a beautiful day where i am also.
since i had to work yesterday i excused myself from work a little early today. i too have a busy week bc I am going to take friday off, and maybe Thursday. i have another friend who is traveling in and has an interview up here.
i hope your work week isn’t too bad. even if you are giving yourself an excuse not to write 🙂 .
what i witnessed was sad. and maybe the most intense of things. terribly sad. i had no idea what to say to these people. you never do.
what kind of coffee do you like? Starbucks? McDonalds? Caribou Coffee? Dunkin Donuts? Seattle’s Best?
Our friend…. ahhh our friend. he is taking me out to breakfast either tomorrow or Wednesday depending on our schedules.
my friend is coming friday, he has a conference and we are going to a basketball game, we got almost front row seats. i’m excited. I LOVE halloween. LOVE IT. it is maybe my favorite holiday of them all. nothing beats a good halloween. i used to love dressing up as a kid, now i like to watch kids who are dressed up in there costumes. and also frequent a few festivities as well!
what do i love the most about where i live. well, i live downtown, so there is a lot to do here. its walking distance to everything, so i can walk to a lot of restaurants. I like the food here, i think there are a lot of nice places to eat. i think that it is diverse. for me there is a lot of diversity, but that is my perspective. i’ve only lived in 3 places in my life, but moving here as given me perspective about seeing the world and moving around. i have enjoyed it.
lawyers? thats a lame sort of question.. you know that nobody likes lawyers. do you like lawyers?
October 26, 2009 at 8:37 pm
Oh nice, a short week. I have to work a lot this week so next week I can take it easy. I go back to Miami on Wednesday for the actual wedding. I can’t wait. It’s going to be fun. And no worries, I will still write. No excuse for that. 🙂
Coffee. Well my favorite is Colombian coffee. That’s obvious. But I love Starbucks. I know a lot of people are against it but I genuinely enjoy it. Also, since I have moved around a bit, it is the one place in America that looks the same throughout. And that brings a lot of comfort. What kind of coffee do you like?
Breakfast with our friend. Hmm…let’s hope its tomorrow. 😉
Really? Lately, I have been liking Halloween more and more. It’s fun. And the dressing up part is always the best. I’m a taxi driver this year. I have had a lot of fun with that costume. What are you dressing up as?
Sounds like your place is nice. I am still thinking about that. But that is a long answer to tell you the truth. I will save that one for when our conversations are more private and not posted all over a public blog.
Hmmm…do I like lawyers. I have very good friends of mine that are lawyers and are wonderful people. I also have lawyers and not particularly my favorite people. But we need them.
What kind of food do you like? What’s your favorite sport and team?
October 26, 2009 at 11:16 pm
you are funny. you make me laugh. all the pressure!!! our friend… its going to depend on my schedule – and how much work i have to do really tommorrow. frankly it’ll probably be wed bc i have a meeting at 630 -8 am wed and after that have a break. tomorrow i probably go in around 7 and our friend doesn’t usually rise until 8. i also have to talk to him about my work thing from yesterday.
lawyers. blaah. double blaaaah. but i respect your friends. the thing is – its too bad that we need lawyers, right? i might be a bit naive when it comes to these things. I just don’t know enough about the profession. they say a good lawyer is a good friend to have but i guess i’ve yet to encounter it. i too have a few good friends who are lawyers and every now and then i have to run things by them so i am grateful for those two people.
can you give me a small hint about your favorite thing in … Rhode Island?
what kind of food do i like? ha. easier to say what i don’t like. things i don’t like: peas, lima beans, certain types of seafood (just bc i didn’t grow up eating them). Before I moved here I had never tried certain types of seafood at all. But I have grown to like most of them – lobsters, crabs, shrimp. one thing I want to try is scallops. what do they taste like? I also like mexican food, probably is my favorite. After than I like italian, which is a bit required. i like chinese a lot also. but there is so much about food i don’t know. i would like to try french food. what kind of food do you like? colombian food isn’t an option.
coffee – i like a few things at starbucks a LOT – fraps and pumpkin spice latte. I also like apple cider there. i also like dd a lot too. i also like mcd’s. so in order, sb pumpkin spice>dd>mcds.
can you give me your opinion on something? i need to buy someone (our friend) a watch. he requires a simple, leather band, silver dial watch. its kind of hard to find that exact match for some reason.
http://www1.macys.com/catalog/product/index.ognc?ID=238015&CategoryID=29194
http://www1.macys.com/catalog/product/index.ognc?ID=420297&CategoryID=37944
http://www1.macys.com/catalog/product/index.ognc?ID=314428&CategoryID=29294
http://www1.macys.com/catalog/product/index.ognc?ID=192844&CategoryID=24074 (with silver dial though)
October 27, 2009 at 12:38 am
I like the burberry or the ESQ the best. And if I had to pick b/t the two, then the burberry.
I obviously love Colombian food. But what is my favorite food…hmmm…a well cooked meal. But that is so general. I consider myself a foodie and I have a deep appreciation for good food. If I had to pick…maybe French. If not I do love Italian as well. In terms of Latin, outside of Colombian…then Argentinian. I do love Spanish food as well. I feel that the pallid is and interesting place that allows you to discover all sort of flavors and inspires emotions hidden deeply.
Ill tell you about RI over private email.
You like DD…hmmm…that leads me to think you are a New Englander….
What does an opportunity mean to you? Do you feel opportunities are out there and we need to look for them or do we have to actively look out for opportunities?
October 27, 2009 at 12:40 am
BTW…I hope you had a good day today…
October 27, 2009 at 12:41 am
ANd I’m so happy you do like Stbx!!!!
October 26, 2009 at 11:36 pm
yeah it might be tomorrow sometime bc he is going to ny on wed sometime apparently ….
October 27, 2009 at 12:39 am
🙂 that’s great…this intrigue needs to come to an end…
October 27, 2009 at 1:39 am
i’m pretty sure i’m already on your radar… by some of the questions.
yes i’m in new england. the stbx i go to is in a hotel by where i live. there are two in sort of neighboring hotels but one is a little more convenient to go to. i figured the dd might tip the new england thing off. i think i’ve given quite a few tip offs in fact.
opportunity. i really don’t understand your question when you ask: “Do you feel opportunities are out there and we need to look for them or do we have to actively look out for opportunities?” Aren’t those two statements the same thing? Opportunities are out there no question and I think people need to look for them. I think opportunities are a way for us to better our life, but I think sometimes we think things are opportunities that really end up just being mirages – we take something that appears to be an opportunity but we leave something behind that we didn’t really know how to appreciate. “the grass is always greener on the other side” as they say. What do you think about opportunities? Why do you ask?
food. wow. i am naive when it comes to world cuisine. you know i go out a lot with a friend coworker who makes me feel unintentionally stupid when it comes to food. there is sooooo much i haven’t tried. i had no idea for instance what gnocchi was until I came here. a couple of things I have learned is that food and the price of food mean nothing. I went out a few months ago and spent a small fortune on crappy food. and you can get tacos from a taco stand by my work for 1.50 and they are great. one great thing is i have a lot of people from different places at work that bring in food for me so i’ve tried so many things. i just had a fruit called a persimmon today. have you ever tried one? its interesting you say that food brings up hidden emotions. the center for aroma is very close to the memory center in the brain, an area called the amygdala. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amygdala
what is french food? like other than escargot?
I did have a nice day. morning heavy. better than yesterday but still a little sad. it was a beautiful day but chilly. how about you? did you have a nice day? busy? i guess you went to work when you got back? how was your flight? you should probably go to bed early, since you must be exhausted.
oh and how was the party?
this is probably the longest email ever.
October 27, 2009 at 1:55 am
Not the longest email ever. At all. Hence, I do enjoy reading you.
I did wake up at 5 am but I had a small dinner party tonight, which is still going on. Hahahahaha….
Opportunities…not the same thing. I feel that they come towards you and you have the choice of either seizing them or not. Or maybe I might believe the opposite and you have to go and search for them if not you will never be able to seize them. This is when I don’t make sense. That could also be b/c we have drank 2 bottles of wine. Do you like wine?
French food is way more than escargot. I follow chefs. My favorite right now is Thomas Keller. He has various restaurants around the country. I would love to go to French Laundry out in Napa Valley. It is claimed to be one of the best restaurants in the world. THey have a new menu everyday and its $250 per person just for food. You get a 5 or 6 course meal plus drink, but possibly it will be one of the best meals of your life and you don’t ever get to choose what you get to eat. I lately have been cooking from the Julia Child cook book and that has been great b/c it has simplified French food. I also have a book from Cordon Blue but I sometimes get overwhelmed by the recipes. Like I said I love to cook.
I’m happy you had a good day.
My party was wonderful. More details in a private setting.
So a New Englander…hmmm….I have a few guesses. But I’m probably wrong. But like I have insisted we need to take this to a private setting. It’s too much for a public blog.
Also, what do you think about my watch picks? What do you think about manipulation???
October 27, 2009 at 2:39 am
Correction…the two bottles of wine were not drank solely by me…they were shared with two other people…I only had 2 glasses. Dinner party is now over…
October 27, 2009 at 3:09 am
you asked me a question today that was a dead give away. i dont know why anyone would have asked that question unless you knew the answer. but you probably have been asking me questions all along to get a sense and some of those questions probably went in and around me.
are you still awake?
October 27, 2009 at 3:10 am
I’m still awake…
October 27, 2009 at 3:26 am
i just went out to eat with my friend, we went to a greek place just up the hill from where i live. i had chardonnay but usually i like red wines, like merlot.
there is a place in newport ri that does a 5-7 course dinner for $200 some dollars that is supposed to be excellent. have you been to newport?
Ok i now understand what you mean by opportunities. I feel that both can happen, its like asking if you believe in destiny or do you control your own destiny. I think no matter what you have to search out for opportunities, to some degree. as long as you make an attempt to get up out of bed and leave the house, there are opportunities that arise. the issue is that sometimes these opportunities are easier to find than others and sometimes they are quite a challenge. The question is how much do you want to work for it, certainly. if you expose yourself to more things, you will have more opportunities. Right??
Someone is a little tipsy i detect??? 🙂
I wasn’t asking about your party i was asking about your friend’s party but i presume that is probably a very private thing to discuss.
I liked the watch suggestions!! thank you. I need to go to macys next door tomorrow and look for something. i’ll let you know what i find. i just worry they won’t have the burberry brand here, and also i know this person wants it to look ultra-conservative.
Manipulation means two things to me. I don’t know which one you are talking about – the sense where you try to compel someone else to thinking or agreeing with you and sometimes resorting to deceit in order to accomplish that —– or a form of chiropractic medicine? I don’t know how much i believe in chiropractic medicine – a lot of them are crooks, but not all i am sure. manipulative people suck.
October 27, 2009 at 3:40 am
Glad you had a good dinner.
Tipsy…hmmm…maybe…I think is that I am so tired and I haven’t slept a full night of sleep in over 3 days. I plan to do that tonight.
I have been to Newport, RI a lot of times. I also have gone to Newport, CA, but I guess you are talking about RI. I have not been to that restaurant that you mentioned though. I think the only time I will spend that kind of money is when I want to celebrate a special occasion and Mr. Keller’s cooking is involved.
I guess that is true. The more you put yourself out there the more you will be exposed to and hence that means you will have more opportunities. I am not sure about that theory though. Because it is not constant. That is my problem with it…
I will tell you all about my party…just not on this blog…
If you live where I think you live…you will find the Burberry brand at the Nordstrom.
Manipulation is a big topic. Maybe it will take a long time to tackle. I dont like it but I see it happen all the time. It is troubling…
What was the best part about your dinner???
October 27, 2009 at 3:35 am
oh you know what my favorite dessert in this world is? creme brulee!!! that is french.
October 27, 2009 at 3:55 am
Mmmmm, saganaki no question!!! Fried cheese, as you may know. I could eat that and that alone for the rest of my life. it would get a little boring but still. we also got baked feta. I love cheese. and then we split moussaka and lamb. I like cheese. its yummy in my tummy. i’m a big texture person. i think it is important to appreciate texture. cheese takes on so many different textures, and then combined with the flavors. yum.
Nordstrom. I can see it from the window. But I hope they have simple stuff watches there. i like it as a store, but you tend to get more flash than conservative there. i bought a lot of winter clothes there last year during christmas time.
tell me about manipulation. Why did you ask? There must be a reason bc nobody likes manipulation, clearly. Right? Who do you feel has manipulated you? I don’t like being lied to, that is for sure, and I consider lying a form of manipulation.
tell me when you go to bed. you probably should go soon?
i have something to say about opportunity.
October 27, 2009 at 4:03 am
What about opportunity?
Hahaha…so you can see it from your window. Hmmm…This is driving me wild…
I don’t like to get lied to either…manipulation is not necessarily lying though. It can also be moving pieces around so you get an outcome desired. Or pushing pieces together so you get that outcome. That is not necessarily lying, that is just moving things around. So it is relative, dont you think??? Either way I don’t like it. It is game playing.
I should go soon, but for some odd reason I cannot seem to go to bed.
October 27, 2009 at 4:03 am
opportunity i agree it is not constant. you know sometimes you never know when things are going to come your way. opportunity knocks when you least expect it, right? but if you don’t expose yourself then clearly you won’t find any opportunity. so its sensitivity and specificity in math. the more you expose yourself the higher your chance of running into opportunity, but opportunity doesn’t always present to those who don’t expose themselves.
if you don’t expose, i guarantee you won’t find opportunity. right?
have you ever eaten mr keller’s food?
Click to access fl_menu.pdf
ummmm i’ll have one of everything and two orders of MASCARPONE “CROSTATA”.
October 27, 2009 at 4:07 am
I have eaten several times at Bouchon in Vegas. It is another of Mr. Keller’s restaurants. It was the best steak frites I have ever eaten in my life. By far.
Well, you are mixing probability with opportunity then and that could get into all sort of complex equations. Maybe its both…
What is your favorite kind of cheese?
October 27, 2009 at 4:14 am
well tell me and feel free when you go. this is so nuts but whatever. i have to be at work at 7. sometimes i think i should go to work a little later but i get soooo much done early on when there aren’t as many people around. when people start showing up, my productivity slows down. i don’t know why you aren’t sleepy. wine makes me sleepy.
i think i am excited to see my friends this week. old friends are SO important. and the problem for me is that a lot of my friends are spread out. nobody is really back home or in the same place. i’ve made so many friends along my travels. you are lucky all yours are in miami – if i had that how would i not go back to that place. but i don’t have a base quite like that, so to speak. so i envy you for that.
i’ve quite enjoyed getting to know you. you’re a good decent person and you have a solid brain on your shoulders.
i consider manipulation a little worse – its like lying but trying to be clever about it. you can’t move pieces around. its not fair. i get your analogy and i agree. but a liar is a liar is a liar. but manipulative clever sly people – those people you have to be careful with bc if you aren’t careful you don’t know what the hell they are doing.
do you like hummus?
October 27, 2009 at 4:18 am
I love hummus.
You should go to bed. You have to wake up wicked early. You need rest. It is true productivity goes down when you have so many interruptions.
Friends are crucial in life, I believe. I have mentioned that already. Even though you don’t have them all in one place at least feel lucky you get to share time with them. That is important. And you will have a fantastic time this week.
Why thank you for the compliment. I have enjoyed getting to know you too…
So what is a lie to you?
October 27, 2009 at 4:19 am
you will totally laugh if i tell you my favorite cheese.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Babybel
this is my favorite cheese. i could eat them forever. i was first introduced to this when flying abroad in the 90s. They are stupid expensive in my opinion but i love them.
i have never been to vegas but watched a movie this evening called 21. have you seen it?
October 27, 2009 at 4:21 am
Hahahaha…I love those cheeses. My dad used to get them for me when I was little. I love, love them!
I did see that movie and I liked it a lot. Did you? Vegas is nutz. I only keep going b/c I have conferences there. I have been there like 7 or 8 times. But it is insane. It does have great restaurants.
October 27, 2009 at 4:25 am
a lie: not being honest. and i can deal with white lies but not at work. i need everyone to be completely honest pretty much all the time, things are soooo predicated on trust. trust is really really really really important for me. what is a lie to you?
I will go to bed in about 15 minutes.
i think the thing that happens when your friends spread out is that inevitably you lose touch with a few of them. and i have always gone to big schools and that is flat out what happens, people spread out.
what made you leave miami in the first place? opportunity?
October 27, 2009 at 4:29 am
A lie is not being honest or is the omission of something. I hate lies. I am not the most trusting of people so for me to trust I need to be certain that no lies exist. Do you trust easily?
That is true. I sometimes feel like I have to take the initiative with my friends since I was the one that left. But it is all well worth it.
What made me leave Miami that is a long sad story. That sort of unraveled in this blog. I’ll tell you about that one in a more private forum.
October 27, 2009 at 4:28 am
yes i liked the movie a lot. i liked michael clayton even better though. very interesting. verrrry interesting.
i have been to every state in the usa except alaska, and weird as it may be i have never been to vegas. i have been to reno though. once i had a dream i was in vegas. thats the closest i’ve been though.
did you ever watch the clip from forest gump i sent you?
do you believe in destiny or do you believe you control your own destiny?
October 27, 2009 at 4:32 am
You control it…but not exclusively. That is a confusing answer I know. But I believe in faith and that has something to do with it as well. I think. What about you?
October 27, 2009 at 4:31 am
you should try this place.
http://www.yelp.com/biz/don-gallo-north-providence
October 27, 2009 at 4:59 am
I will try it…looks good…I have never been there…
October 27, 2009 at 4:37 am
do i trust easily. blaah. yes i trust too easily. that might be one of my fatal flaws. and i am gullible. but, once i sense or smell a lie, its over. i can’t deal with it.
i don’t want to be disrespectful but i have no interest in hearing about your sad story unless you feel the need to share it, whatever the setting may be. i believe that the past is the past and we move on. optimism about the future, not sorrow about the past. learn from it, make the best of it. so don’t feel obligated.
i just feel bad for you. in these messages and in person your love for your home is soooo obvious. i feel bad for you in that sense. if anyone ever was in love with a place, its you, and that place is miami. i think that is awesome. i do think though that you are admirable for stepping out of the box and searching around. it takes a lot to get someone out of their home and comfort zone.
October 27, 2009 at 4:43 am
Trusting is good. Dont think of it as a flaw.
No worries about the past. I agree. Past is in the past. And well, you have to go through it and learn from it to become the person you are now. And its important so it shapes you but its that. I dont like to dwell on it. I do like to have a positive attitude and just live the present and look towards the future. That is important to me.
Don’t feel bad for me. I do love home. I make no excuses for it. But I appreciate being away from it too but it has allowed me to learn about myself and to appreciate things that otherwise I would have never appreciated it. Being away expands your horizons and that is important in life. B/c things are not about a specific point of view but about a grand scope and I believe all of these experiences have expanded that scope. I am in no way a wise person or anything of the sort, but I feel a bit more sure about who I am and where I what direction I want to head into and in a way I feel a little bit older but in a good way. Do you like your home???
October 27, 2009 at 4:41 am
i kind of think faith and destiny are the same thing, quite frankly. as far as my answer… i don’t know. i struggle with this question a lot. one of my closest friends here in prov thinks that it is both, sort of as you say. i have another friend that i talk with every night back home and we both struggle with the question all together. i don’t know, and i am not emotionally mature enough to handle the depth of this question. maybe i will get some guidance tomorrow from our friend. i think it is an important question.
shall we call it a night?
October 27, 2009 at 4:49 am
I just watched that scene. I had forgotten about that scene. I guess it is both. Sort of what I said. I have a tale about it…I should write about it a bit later…I’m finally getting tired…
October 27, 2009 at 4:51 am
Prov? So you are in Providence…hmmm…I am still lost as to who you are…
Okay…so the tale…really quick…years ago I read a play called “Everyman” and its about how death comes to visit everyman and what he can take with him. After several acts, he finds out that all that actually wants to accompany him to death is his good deeds. I don’t know if destiny rules us or what rules us. I have faith in a lot, and I believe in that. The best I can hope for is to be the best that I can and hope that helps me out in the end. In regards to controlling my life and …well…I try as much as I can, and whatever I cannot…I fill the void with faith…
October 27, 2009 at 5:00 am
OKay…I will go to bed now…I’m exhausted…hope you have a wonderful night…and I will write tomorrow… 🙂
October 27, 2009 at 4:44 am
ok hold on before you go away, i’ll answer this question.
October 27, 2009 at 4:52 am
no i think you are quite mature and wise. but your experiences that you have had shaped that wisedom. and for it you will do well, whether or not you end up in miami or not. if that is your dream i will pray that you make it there.
do i like my home? of course. who doesn’t love home. there is nothing to do there, its a boring but nice city, but the thing is, i can’t really go back there. that was an old person and old me and that person is gone now. all i have is what my experiences have lent me, and i don’t want to settle into what i was and who i was when i was there. i do want to see the world, i have to be here for another year or so and then if opportunities arise i want to see things. and if they don’t i am happy here as well.
home is home. no question. but i’m not sure want to go back for anything more than visiting. its funny i always always always thought i’d move back there. but since i’ve been here, this is the first real experience i’ve had seeing diversity and so many things. i know to you that is funny, your perspective and travels, but this is new to me, and i appreciate it much more than home.
October 27, 2009 at 4:57 am
That is great. Life shapes you. It is what makes you who you are. Whatever those experiences are and if you feel that you need to go and experience more then you should do that. My life I feel is very average and normal in so many ways. But I feel that I need to live it to the fullest. I only get one shot so I need to make the best of it for now. And that is what makes it exiting to me…and that is why I ridiculously share these experiences on this blog. B/c I think maybe one other soul out there will share in the passion that life should be…
October 27, 2009 at 5:01 am
this is exactly how i operate. i totally agree with this. very wise way to put that into words. you know i think i might have said it at some point, but sometimes when the decision of doing right vs doing wrong comes to me, i do right just bc i don’t want to take wrong with me to the grave. and the mistakes i made years ago, i try to go back and apologize to those people, even the kids i was mean to in elementary school. but sometimes i feel that doing the right thing, i should get a little extra help sometimes when things are going bad. and i guess it doesn’t work that way with god. i’m not sure.
i suppose prov could mean provincetown mass… but who really lives there.
October 27, 2009 at 5:05 am
I’m glad we agree…another thing in common…
Yeah…no, was not thinking provincetown, mass… 😉
October 27, 2009 at 5:02 am
good night, sleep well.
October 27, 2009 at 5:07 am
good night. sweet dreams.
October 27, 2009 at 2:13 pm
Good Morning! Hope you slept well and you rested. Did you get to the office by 7am? It was hard to wake up this morning. So did you have breakfast with our friend?
It’s gloomy today. But when I look out my window there is this odd contrast between the overcast sky and the yellow and red trees that is truly beautiful. Hope your day is going well….
October 27, 2009 at 4:53 pm
hi.
i did sleep well. i usually wake up early, internal clock. around 545 or so, shower, pumpkin spice and at work by 645. the sky at sunrise was beautiful. the clouds high above but still the hues of orange red yellow and some colors that i didn’t know existed.
i didn’t have breakfast with him yet but i did speak with him briefly and so now he knows. he wants me to stop by and see him on the way home. i have a meeting at 4 and hopefully it won’t last forever. i’ll communicate more about that this evening.
i am having a so-so day. i think partially bc of the weather. then my helper is sick so i sent him home, i don’t want h1n1. now i am traveling between offices. i was in pawtucket in the morning and now in providence proper. i looked out the window and noticed the trees for the first time just now changing colors. thank you for pointing that out. it is pretty.
how is your day going?
what time do you usually wake up? what did you have for lunch?
October 27, 2009 at 6:56 pm
I’m not really a morning person. Therefore, I use the alarm. Alarm goes off at 7 am but I don’t get out of bed until 730am. I know it takes me that long.
Lunch…I went to to 10 with my assistant for her anniversary lunch. What about you?
Day is busy but good. I keep staring out the window. The colors seem to contrast so well today despite the gloominess. Swine flu…hmmm…There were people coughing in my flight and I’ll kept thinking was great now I’m going to get swine flu. As long as I don’t get it before the wedding I am okay 🙂
October 27, 2009 at 7:32 pm
must be nice to have time to go out to lunch! we had a catered / sponsored lunch by one of the local catering companies – the one that makes the homemade burned salty potato chips. surely you know about those potato chips right? that is one of my favorite things about RI in fact – those darn chips. addictive. but i actually ate in the car driving. no time!!
you should get the swine flu mist when it becomes available. and the flu shot as well. its just too bad this year and is debilitating.
in your half hour in bed, are you awake or do you hit the snooze button? i usually read for that half hour; I hate waking up and having to jump out of bed and get in the shower. off to meeting.
October 27, 2009 at 7:43 pm
I turn on the Today show and let all their talking wake me up. I can’t get out of bed immediately and I def can’t function very well. I move slowly in the mornings…very slowly….
What chips?? I haven’t tried these…should I be embarrassed?
October 27, 2009 at 7:48 pm
no. you just don’t have catered lunches, that is all. 50% of our catered lunches, whereever we are at in the state, have these freaking chips. they are good. its like a staple for catered lunches in RI. i’ve never seen these things anywhere else. the first time i moved here and tasted these things, i think i ate the whole bushel of them.
October 27, 2009 at 8:03 pm
Now, I’m all intrigued about these chips. Yes, we do not have catered lunches. I want to try these…
Yes, I wouldn’t do 10 for dinner. But for a work lunch is good enough. I haven’t been to Capriccio either b/c I heard it is very over priced as well. But RI does have great restaurants. For some odd reason, I’m feeling really tired all of a sudden.
Puppy? What type of puppy?
October 27, 2009 at 8:57 pm
off to see our friend. i’ll email you afterwards. what a relief that will be.
i have a cocker spaniel hybrid city puppy. she’s a baby though.
the chips – i can’t find any pics. i don’t know where to get them from outside of private caterers. and even then i don’t make the orders so i don’t know what they are even called.
you are tired bc you only sleep 6.5 hours. meredith vieira is from Providence.
my meeting – cancelled after some dramas. love the dramas.
October 27, 2009 at 9:37 pm
i don’t know why my entries aren’t getting saved to the blog. weird. i sent you an email to sabri2018@hotmail.com
October 27, 2009 at 7:34 pm
is 10 good?
October 27, 2009 at 7:42 pm
Is 10 good for what?
October 27, 2009 at 7:44 pm
Never mind. Blond moment. Thought you were talking about something else.
Yes, it is decent. Mostly for lunch.
October 27, 2009 at 7:50 pm
i sometimes walk puppy by 10, it looks cool but i heard its nothing great for dinner. i like capriccio a little bit but think its overpriced.
October 27, 2009 at 8:55 pm
off to see our friend. i’ll email you afterwards. what a relief that will be.
i have a cocker spaniel hybrid city puppy. she’s a baby though.
the chips – i can’t find any pics. i don’t know where to get them from outside of private caterers. and even then i don’t make the orders so i don’t know what they are even called.
you are tired bc you only sleep 6.5 hours. meredith vieira is from Providence.
my meeting – cancelled after some dramas. love the dramas.
October 27, 2009 at 9:34 pm
email done & sent to sabri2018@hotmail.com